how did i get here?

i think i know all the little steps that got me to where i am today, but do i really know how each tiny thing affected every other tiny thing? i just feel so truly lucky to be where living the life i want to live. i have the best husband in all the world. we mesh so well, and i find myself shivering a little when i think of all the ways that i could have ended up somewhere else and with someone else. i feel like i would have lost myself had things not worked out just as they did. it definitely gives me confidence that there is a higher power. someone looking out for me or perhaps some instinct that was created within me that helps me protect myself and make the right choices when the choices really matter. perhaps it was all just random chance that worked in this case and doesn't work in a hundred other cases...